On a day like today, I feel a litlle lost, but the little one found me (smile)
Growing inside is a gift from the Heavens, and He shall be blessed
If I was to eat all of the lies they fed, I would starve, I kid you not
But I end this post on a positive note.
Because me, my baby and my other baby will be fine. We will be...and that's just that....
Naree' Renelle
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
An Excerpt from my Novel; "One Night Stand!" ENJOY!! :)
I walked to my car, started it and drove off towards Route 50 toward Annapolis
But had I not whipped back around to Marcelle’s house get my phone charger, I may have been a second too late, or early. The Universe had a funny way of operating sometimes. But in crucial instances, I believe your spiritual guardians strategically place you exactly where you need to be.
The Buffalo Wild Wings parking lot was packed. I pulled up driving the Explorer that evening; a blessing in disguise. It had very dark tints and I was unidentifiable. The Solara would have announced my presence…..early. All of my friends knew me by the infamous silver Solara.
“What the fuck is she doing here though?" I thought.
I saw Alexis Monroe was coming out of the Buffalo Wild Wings, laughing, with a small entourage behind her. I did a double take, although I was sure she hadn’t noticed me.
“How conveniently janky.”
I parked the truck in an inconspicuous spot, way in the back of the parking lot. I watched Alexis and her three friends continue to laugh while approaching a black Maxima. One of the girls was dark skinned, with the same height, weight and loc length as Alexis. The other was this girl I recognized from Tetwork. I made sure I kept my eyes on Alexis though; I noticed she was walking at a slower pace. I imagined it was because of the miscarriage incident. I wondered if she came to the restaurant looking for me.
“Alexis already knows what the fuck is up man! Fuck she even doing out on the town after she was just complaining about miscarrying a child and all that?”
My stomach was on fire, with rage and passion.
Angel was calling me. Where the fuck had she been this whole time.
Angel was calling me. Where the fuck had she been this whole time.
“Mmm hmm, I wonder if she was inside parlaying with Alexis and the rest of those snake bitches…” I hoped not. Angel was supposed to be my genuine friend.
And then I looked over and saw Pierre
“Damn, how fucking crazy is this shit here?” I thought. “I pulled up right on time!"
I knew why Alexis' face looked the way it did; Pierre's presence did the same to her as it did to me. Her entourage got in the Maxima but she stood outside, waiting for Pierre
“Damn.” I felt myself melt at that moment.
He stepped out of his truck, with a cloud of smoke behind him, and she smiled and swung her locs back a little, feeling herself. He was feeling himself too, he walked up to her with his lips balled, like always.
I saw them embrace and looked on, shaking my head. I couldn’t believe that I just conveniently drove into that shit. It was just supposed to be a humble trip to the Buffalo Wild Wings.
“Damn….Damn……Damn!”
Angel called my phone again. I pressed ignore and kept my attention focused on Pierre and Alexis.
I read his lips. “Damn, true,” he said and looked away from her.
She wasn’t facing me, so I couldn’t see what she was saying. I just saw her looking up at him, continuing to move her lips at a rapid pace.
I closed my eyes. I had to calm myself before I stepped out of the truck, being a fool for Love. Was I out of my fucking mind?
I wanted to jump out and spazz on both of them. “What the fuck you doing out here talking to this bitch Pierre
I looked down, Robin was calling my phone now. How did she always know exactly when to call me?
“Fuck,” I thought, getting frustrated. Too much was going on at that moment.
I looked back up, and turned my music down like someone could hear it.
“Check this damn girl out.”
Alexis had her hands on Pierre Pierre
“Nah, don’t hide your face nigga….that’s your damn problem. Always hiding and shit!” I said to Pierre
Then I saw Alexis look down to her stomach, and my stomach reminded me of the foul shit I was in.
“Oh no…”
I saw her turn her face to the side with fresh tears in her eyes. My eyes and mouth grew wider.
“Ooooh shit, was that his baby? No Pierre
I almost moved the truck’s shift gear, flashed the lights, honked the horn….anything to release what I was feeling at the moment. I had to still be dreaming, not witnessing the reality in that parking lot.
But when I regained logic, I felt like a real investigative journalist out there. I was in the cut, watching the whole ordeal go down, and nobody knew I was there to see it. Nobody but me.
My face was tight as I sat in my reclined seat. I took a look at my three missed calls again and then
After their embrace, Alexis stepped into the front seat of the Maxima. It sped right off and Pierre
My wired mind doesn’t recollect, but something made me jump silently from the truck, lock the doors and catch up to Pierre
“Black Maaan,” I said out of nowhere, in a sultry tone.
He turned with his eyes wide, and the look on his face was fucking priceless.
“Aww shit…” was all he said. But then he tried to clean it up, “Aww shit, wassup shawty."He reached for a hug but I declined.
I knew and he knew. “Yeah, you fucked up.”
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Clovers of Ecstasy
But you should love me, because we both live on this street
A two way pasture of concrete, with flowing heart beats on each end
A lovers’ canvas, covered with the natural flow of our aura
Green lily pastures, honeysuckle flowers and black roses
Paradise.
Where I reside. Would you like to come along on my ride?
Water bluer than the sky, sand crystals that get you high
Sunrises and sunsets with my moans amongst the ambience
Egyptian oils that make my skin glisten…as my hips speak to you, listen
Don’t ask permission
Just start with sweet kisses, cinnamon caresses, brown sugar tongue rolls
Never end, send tingles from my spine to my toes
Is this why you should love me?
No, not the only reason,
because love is forever evolving like four seasons
Is it because of the way I stare at you under the moonlight?
Your eyes dancing as you watch what you like
Whenever you’re inside me, gotta give my bottom lip a bite
Because baby it’s yours, won’t put up a fight tonight
The way I feel you grow against my walls,
Afterwards she’s still thumping, giving your manhood a call
On and on and on, without one pause
Wake up from my dreams and we can start it all
Over………
My bed-leaf clover
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Mind Elevation...
Thru my Creation, is mind elevation
A long walk through the...Black Nation
Why I talk Black? Why is that all I see?
Because that is the ONLY....I am the ONLY
Tomorrow is never here, and now is the time I am standing in....therefore it does not exist
If I can stay away from the worry that a earthly mind brings...I can perhaps.....Elevate.
A long walk through the...Black Nation
Why I talk Black? Why is that all I see?
Because that is the ONLY....I am the ONLY
Tomorrow is never here, and now is the time I am standing in....therefore it does not exist
If I can stay away from the worry that a earthly mind brings...I can perhaps.....Elevate.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Why I'm Sexy....Why I'm Free
It all started with a conversation about the Yoni- the Hindu term for female genitalia. As I ascend into higher levels of consciousness, the sacred act of sex (more specifically, tantric sex) comes up. Over and over again actually.
As a result, I have drawn some of my own conclusions and coined the concept or idea "Yoni Power." This can be described as my idea of the respect and honor that the feminine sacred place should always receive on a Universal level. It is between a woman's thighs that Paradise on Earth is reached. And from there, the amount of pleasure received can feel galactical. It is through this vessel (the Yoni) that all Life moves. The Yoni is a beautiful and Powerful thing!
As a Black Queen Goddess, I acknowledge and surrender to my sexuality. Like a black kitten that has grown into a full and lively Black Panther...here I am. Sexy, and Free.
Never confuse promiscuity with the sexual energy that Divine beings naturally possess. As a sexual being, sex is a very natural and perfect occurence- it feels good and I believe we should indulge. However, like most things, there are boundaries to be respected. But that there is for another post.
My Kings and Queens of the Jungle, we stand here as the protoype for the Earth's core and I feel so enlightened to share with you the energy I receive from the "Black Man high." He, in exchange, gets high from my essence and nothing is more God-like. I open myself to all of my audience to know that these types of exchanges have been rampant for the last few months of my Life. It's like a phase I am going through as I continue to grasp onto my "Yoni Power." I am sure the Kings I have spent time with are very grateful for this Moon phase of mine (smile).
But anyway, my point is to bring together the fact that sex is not a taboo subject; instead it is Knowledge of Life itself. Nothing on earth is more potent than the elements that can come together when man and woman are engaging in sexual intercourse. Nothing gives me more freedom...and nothing makes me feel more free than taking my Yoni Power back and embracing my very potent sexuality. I am here for a reason, and it is to share this Sex Knowledge of the Most High with you. Let your mind and my body be the vessel that washes you to the shore of Paradise.
So let us not fret about the past or society's views of sexuality...let us create our own! No longer will we look to the mass media to decide who or what is acceptable for the pleasure we recieve in the privacy of our own bedrooms. The day when the women of the world understand, value and appreciate their precious Yonis, is the same day that men will bow at our feet to kiss them- respecting us for the Queens that we are.
Much Love and Peace to the Feminine Guiding Principle that surrounds us all, and her male counterpart that creates balance. Be sexy, Be free...Be bold and unleash your Inner Goddess. This isn't just a post for Women because men too share this feminine principle in their energies. And the man who understands and fully embraces the graces of the woman's anatomy will always be rewarded by the heavens tenfold.
I am Afiyana. And with the Yoni, I have the Power. The Power to spread this Love and Knowledge to you. Peace.
As a result, I have drawn some of my own conclusions and coined the concept or idea "Yoni Power." This can be described as my idea of the respect and honor that the feminine sacred place should always receive on a Universal level. It is between a woman's thighs that Paradise on Earth is reached. And from there, the amount of pleasure received can feel galactical. It is through this vessel (the Yoni) that all Life moves. The Yoni is a beautiful and Powerful thing!
As a Black Queen Goddess, I acknowledge and surrender to my sexuality. Like a black kitten that has grown into a full and lively Black Panther...here I am. Sexy, and Free.
Never confuse promiscuity with the sexual energy that Divine beings naturally possess. As a sexual being, sex is a very natural and perfect occurence- it feels good and I believe we should indulge. However, like most things, there are boundaries to be respected. But that there is for another post.
My Kings and Queens of the Jungle, we stand here as the protoype for the Earth's core and I feel so enlightened to share with you the energy I receive from the "Black Man high." He, in exchange, gets high from my essence and nothing is more God-like. I open myself to all of my audience to know that these types of exchanges have been rampant for the last few months of my Life. It's like a phase I am going through as I continue to grasp onto my "Yoni Power." I am sure the Kings I have spent time with are very grateful for this Moon phase of mine (smile).
But anyway, my point is to bring together the fact that sex is not a taboo subject; instead it is Knowledge of Life itself. Nothing on earth is more potent than the elements that can come together when man and woman are engaging in sexual intercourse. Nothing gives me more freedom...and nothing makes me feel more free than taking my Yoni Power back and embracing my very potent sexuality. I am here for a reason, and it is to share this Sex Knowledge of the Most High with you. Let your mind and my body be the vessel that washes you to the shore of Paradise.
So let us not fret about the past or society's views of sexuality...let us create our own! No longer will we look to the mass media to decide who or what is acceptable for the pleasure we recieve in the privacy of our own bedrooms. The day when the women of the world understand, value and appreciate their precious Yonis, is the same day that men will bow at our feet to kiss them- respecting us for the Queens that we are.
Much Love and Peace to the Feminine Guiding Principle that surrounds us all, and her male counterpart that creates balance. Be sexy, Be free...Be bold and unleash your Inner Goddess. This isn't just a post for Women because men too share this feminine principle in their energies. And the man who understands and fully embraces the graces of the woman's anatomy will always be rewarded by the heavens tenfold.
I am Afiyana. And with the Yoni, I have the Power. The Power to spread this Love and Knowledge to you. Peace.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Raspy voice to match my Sashay
This Book...
(my first novel)
Is my Life right now
Part-time
Because I once made Love to her always, with no breaks in between
But other parts of Life took over
Here He comes...(smile), and even some she's. Goddesses that you insist on denying.
Anyway, I am grateful for the opportunity to present my heart to you...that's what keeps me motivated and stabilized. It's a roller coaster ride to watch it come together, but it's all worth it. It's a process that is making me stronger.
It's alot more than I thought it would be. It takes alot more of myself than I ever intended...but it's a great and wonderful feeling. A certain high I have that lets me know that I am doing what my heart desires.
When you beat to the rhythm of your own drum...Life aligns beautifully.
I am Naree' Renelle...Afiyana...Black Hennessy...BlackSoulRose...E&J....Woman of many names. I have many talents...and seducing you (with or without language) is one of them. You should know this, and believe.
But here I am style-freeing again...I am
I just feel like my Life is like poetry in motion...forgive me if I believe in devotion
Deep blue oceans, marinades made of seashells and lover's sweat....can you hear me?
I hear moans and beautiful kisses at sunrise, at sunset. Especially when it's wet...outside. (Laugh)
When the Earth is damp with her own juices flowing from the skies that she makes Love to, our bodies too should be in motion of a Loved one. In the Spiritual, Physical, Mental, Habitual or...all of the above type of ways.
Raspy voice to match my sashay...
Here I am writing my heart out for this...I deserve it
You deserve to hear my story...I was born for this. I promise you. It's something I feel in my bones...it's something I won't and can't and don't want to get over because it is me...all a part of me.
When I really think about how this book came together...how my Destiny saw it and imagined it and grew with it in real Life right before my eyes...I knew it was something special.
If this post doesn't reach one person...(it probably won't...most people think I am soooo spaced out there LOL) or if it only reaches you...know that this is my hard work. I can't throw it away on anything. And anything that is mine is worth fighting for.
I fight for my Freedom...for my country...for my Family most importantly...and for my independence everyday. This is who I am. I just believe in...everything that believes in me too. Complex woman I know...but to know me, is to Love me. I Love me.
I Am...
Woman of many names...damp with the Earth's rain...Paradise. The waters of my spine are quenched when you come around...is it not Love...or a figment of my mind. Are you here with me?
Hmph!
Yes...this and so much more can be answered in this book. Be not afraid of metaphysics, it's who we are...naturally. I love you.
Tomorrow is not promised but let's promise that we will look forward to it. With Love in our hearts and sweetness in our sashays...Women can heal the world. We can start by healing our male counterparts.
(Black Man, know I always and forever eternally Love you Baby! *3 winks* Oooow!)
Save Black Love...it is...everything that IS.
(my first novel)
Is my Life right now
Part-time
Because I once made Love to her always, with no breaks in between
But other parts of Life took over
Here He comes...(smile), and even some she's. Goddesses that you insist on denying.
Anyway, I am grateful for the opportunity to present my heart to you...that's what keeps me motivated and stabilized. It's a roller coaster ride to watch it come together, but it's all worth it. It's a process that is making me stronger.
It's alot more than I thought it would be. It takes alot more of myself than I ever intended...but it's a great and wonderful feeling. A certain high I have that lets me know that I am doing what my heart desires.
When you beat to the rhythm of your own drum...Life aligns beautifully.
I am Naree' Renelle...Afiyana...Black Hennessy...BlackSoulRose...E&J....Woman of many names. I have many talents...and seducing you (with or without language) is one of them. You should know this, and believe.
But here I am style-freeing again...I am
I just feel like my Life is like poetry in motion...forgive me if I believe in devotion
Deep blue oceans, marinades made of seashells and lover's sweat....can you hear me?
I hear moans and beautiful kisses at sunrise, at sunset. Especially when it's wet...outside. (Laugh)
When the Earth is damp with her own juices flowing from the skies that she makes Love to, our bodies too should be in motion of a Loved one. In the Spiritual, Physical, Mental, Habitual or...all of the above type of ways.
Raspy voice to match my sashay...
Here I am writing my heart out for this...I deserve it
You deserve to hear my story...I was born for this. I promise you. It's something I feel in my bones...it's something I won't and can't and don't want to get over because it is me...all a part of me.
When I really think about how this book came together...how my Destiny saw it and imagined it and grew with it in real Life right before my eyes...I knew it was something special.
If this post doesn't reach one person...(it probably won't...most people think I am soooo spaced out there LOL) or if it only reaches you...know that this is my hard work. I can't throw it away on anything. And anything that is mine is worth fighting for.
I fight for my Freedom...for my country...for my Family most importantly...and for my independence everyday. This is who I am. I just believe in...everything that believes in me too. Complex woman I know...but to know me, is to Love me. I Love me.
I Am...
Woman of many names...damp with the Earth's rain...Paradise. The waters of my spine are quenched when you come around...is it not Love...or a figment of my mind. Are you here with me?
Hmph!
Yes...this and so much more can be answered in this book. Be not afraid of metaphysics, it's who we are...naturally. I love you.
Tomorrow is not promised but let's promise that we will look forward to it. With Love in our hearts and sweetness in our sashays...Women can heal the world. We can start by healing our male counterparts.
(Black Man, know I always and forever eternally Love you Baby! *3 winks* Oooow!)
Save Black Love...it is...everything that IS.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Am I too BLACK for You??
Am I too BLACK for You??
No really...
Butternut Toffee, Sweet Mahogany Coffee....I Am
Yet you tell me my taste is tart?
Am I...too Ancient in my ways?? Too star-like when I gaze??
Treasures that you can't appraise
BLACK MAN!!
Am I...too melanin-inspired,
Cinnamon-flavored torch to to your Fire
Everything you desire??
One hit of me will take you higher
I walk with the Sun, dance with the Moon
Wash away the world's ills--Afrakan monsoon
Yes, Revolution is coming soon
Hair standing high on top of my head, every eye on me in the room
Citrus honey kisses, golden hips mistress
A taste way past delicious....
Passion-Fruit
Or strange fruit that hangs from trees
Flowers in her hair, Billie Holideez
The Renaissance of Harlem, death comes in threes
Black Leaders, Brown people, the Marcus Garveys
Am I bitter from the stench of Afrakan captives?
Inner-city ghettoes, street-sweeps, pissy mattresses
Blasphemous! Telling me my God isn't Black!
Look at my skin, how perfect is that?
How should I react...to the trafficking of crack?
We lost something down the road, now I'm fighting to get it back...
From your reality, eye am mentally detached
I call it my Freedom...you call it being too BLACK!
Am I too Black? No really...
Born in Afraka....Roots in Philly
Rude gal tank you, sometimes eye be silly...
But still, I have to ask again...really?
I'm just trying to do me brother,
trying to be FREE brother,
show you I'm still your Mother,
Love for you OVER and UNDER cover,
probably will never be another
Soulstress from Down Under
My Voice vibration is like the roll of thunder...
Am I too Black? No really..
Look at me, my eyes...Black Royalty
Look into my heart, so much stone you see
Being Black is just my...actuality.
Black Woman. (An Afiyana Post.)
No really...
Butternut Toffee, Sweet Mahogany Coffee....I Am
Yet you tell me my taste is tart?
Am I...too Ancient in my ways?? Too star-like when I gaze??
Treasures that you can't appraise
BLACK MAN!!
Am I...too melanin-inspired,
Cinnamon-flavored torch to to your Fire
Everything you desire??
One hit of me will take you higher
I walk with the Sun, dance with the Moon
Wash away the world's ills--Afrakan monsoon
Yes, Revolution is coming soon
Hair standing high on top of my head, every eye on me in the room
Citrus honey kisses, golden hips mistress
A taste way past delicious....
Passion-Fruit
Or strange fruit that hangs from trees
Flowers in her hair, Billie Holideez
The Renaissance of Harlem, death comes in threes
Black Leaders, Brown people, the Marcus Garveys
Am I bitter from the stench of Afrakan captives?
Inner-city ghettoes, street-sweeps, pissy mattresses
Blasphemous! Telling me my God isn't Black!
Look at my skin, how perfect is that?
How should I react...to the trafficking of crack?
We lost something down the road, now I'm fighting to get it back...
From your reality, eye am mentally detached
I call it my Freedom...you call it being too BLACK!
Am I too Black? No really...
Born in Afraka....Roots in Philly
Rude gal tank you, sometimes eye be silly...
But still, I have to ask again...really?
I'm just trying to do me brother,
trying to be FREE brother,
show you I'm still your Mother,
Love for you OVER and UNDER cover,
probably will never be another
Soulstress from Down Under
My Voice vibration is like the roll of thunder...
Am I too Black? No really..
Look at me, my eyes...Black Royalty
Look into my heart, so much stone you see
Being Black is just my...actuality.
Black Woman. (An Afiyana Post.)
Goddesses....
Black Goddess, dark in the night
Giving angels their wings for flight
Spinning around coconut and orange groves in Islands and Florida
Stopping in Georgia to smell a peach,
Hillside mountains like Minnesota
Her curves, well within your reach
If your hands were to create the perfect silhouette
Her body would be only mutely modeled
Your hands wander and you squrim,
you ain't get there yet
Her eyes mesmerizing you like a young toddle
And a sweet scent of Connamon she left on the Holy Land
Her honey brwon fingertips touching the Soul of Man
Adding more color to the night
Giving angels their wings for flight
Arousing many, yet taking no man as a prisoner
To her love and seductress glow though, they would all surrender
Blindly hunted by the meeks of men,
The sun glowing from her face
Her arrogance is well-respected, well-deserved even
Look at her sashay
Natura moevements of heartbeats, eye blinks, baby steps
Like the man whose grazed hands frame her silhouette
As Naturel as crysatl blue water found on Caribbean seas
Her cinnamon-scented kisses leave behind the sand of the world's beaches
Her breath breathes wind at the coolest of times
Her smile as wide as the sky, bright as the month of July
Her skin, still Dark as the darkest of nights
Giving angels their wings for flight
Naree' Renelle Post.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
One Night Stand: My Life's Movie (A Novel by Naree' Renelle)
This here is the OFFICIAL Promo video for my first novel "One Night Stand: My Life's Movie"!!!
Summer 2011 is the goal, with your support, prayers and my vision, we can bring this to Life. Enjoy! Naree' Renelle (Love.)
**PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS!! YOU FEEDBACK AND OPINIONS ARE WELCOME!**
Summer 2011 is the goal, with your support, prayers and my vision, we can bring this to Life. Enjoy! Naree' Renelle (Love.)
**PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS!! YOU FEEDBACK AND OPINIONS ARE WELCOME!**
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Temptress Tiptoe: An Ode to Black Beauties
"The Art of Integirty, the definition of HERstory, all stories. The make-up of the Universe, our Universe. She is the complexity of all experiences; both joyful and painful. The Earth, Mother Earth, golden-bronzed. Black Woman (Wombman). Love, Wisdom, Divinity." -Naree Renelle'
"She sits upon her regal throne, surrounded by dynasties of old, Pyraminds are her rings, the STARS, her eyes, And when she speaks, her voice rolls, like THUNDER in the Sky." -Vernon J. Davis Jr.
The Black Woman's image is everywhere, if you really think about it. Though she may come disguised in many forms (i.e. Caucasian women with thick hair and tans), her image is still the roots for Eternal Beauty. The entire world marvels at her sun-kissed eyes; that ignite a passion in men it takes eons to cool. Her sultry stance, her glowing skin, her untamed natural beauty. Be not deceived, nature comes in all colors and with much variety. But the ripe fruit of Afrika called the Black Woman is the Alpha and Omega of Beauty. Ebony Brown Nubian Bliss Black Roses from the Heavens, She is.
How could you ever question the Creator's Divine Glory when you see the perfection of Creation itself everyday in: the Black Woman.
Oh yeah, we come in ALL types of different colors too. You must embrace every mahogany undertone and vanilla hint. The smoothness of our skin is always as sweet as dark chocolate.
Butter pecan, caramel, honey or cinnamon. Any flavor you savor can be found in the Black Woman. Both literally and figuratively speaking. *wink*
This beauty is Ancient, not to be confused with the superficial societal view. This beauty is Sacred. As Black Women, Sacred Beauty is one of our powers. Along with Sacred words, Sacred healing, Sacred cooking and Sacred gracefulness. A picture is worth way more words. You can have a look for yourself:
There are so many things Black Woman represent. Through thte times, through the ages. Our Love, Wisdom and Dedication to Society as a whole is timeless. Everything falls under the tree of the seeds of Life.
STRENGTH.....ELEGANCE......GRACE.
STYLE.....FLAIR....BOLDNESS!!
A WILL TO FIGHT FOR FREEDOM."Only the Strong go crazy, the weak just go along." -Assata Shakur (pictured above)
The instant AFROdisiac. This creature is everything that is. Everything that you see is blessed by the Black Woman. Why do you think you find her so irresistible?
Much Love to those that inspire us to Live our Life like it's GOLDEN!!!!!!!!!!!
And on top of EVERYTHING else, our First Lady is a Black Woman. Now how Real is that??
(All Black Everything....Michelle Obama!!)
So Love yourselves Black Women, know that we are the living example of God's shining Glory. And Love us too Black Men, because it is our nature to Love you. When the Black Man understands the Sacred association with the Black Wombman, and the Black Woman learns to yield her power only for the greater good, we will then we re-ignite the flame of Black Love.
ATTENTION: Fellas....and females. Pictured above is neither a "Bitch" nor a "Hoe." Please stop using these names to describe us. And ladies, we must stop responding to these titles and using them amongst ourselves. Rise Up!
Finding the God-blessed feminine energy essence within myself is the driving factor behind such a post. I hope you enjoyed and hope you will be back. The only place we have to go is up...toward the Sky Mother. Love always, Naree' Renelle
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
A Soul Child....Gone WILD! (Dedicated to those that STAND out!)
(Photo by afrikess)
My looks are to be deceived. Who Am I?
When flowers spring up, I feel emotions rise, tempers flaring....but who am I?
There she goes, they say...Speaking her Revolutionary bullshyt...I got 'em all scared.
They want to unfollow me, but they have to acknowledge me. The TRUTH in my stance, that stands there. The glow in my eyes and my glare.
Rebellious hair, with a mean switch to match. Sorry if I come around alot and not get attached. Perfection is the only match...for the mentally detached.
I remember when I began this post. Here I am, finishing a draft from a few months back. I already spoke about "Sassy Happiness" about two posts down (make sure to check it out!!), and that sums up all I was feeling here.
See because, what do people expect from the "Conscious/ Conscience" crowd or the Spiritually righteous?
I've tried not to infuse my thoughts with those of everyday "people"...but sometimes it is inevitable.
So anyway, they criticized Huey Newton for smoking cigarettes, Bob Marley for smoking ganja and Jay-Z for drinking Ace of Spades.
Oh, and if you're not a traditional Christian, then they don't have any words for you..."lost soul". Acting in favor of your Ancestors is what most would label as "animalistic and barbaric" ideals concerning the worship of a God-head. Fear is ignorance. Ignorance is misunderstood.
Call me Ms. Understood.
BUT however, and anyway, for all of these reasons, and countless others, I am a...Soul Child Gone WILD!
So I say to those that stand out, either by their hair, attitude, stance, style or ideas, DO IT and LOVE IT! For I Love you for being Bold, for feeling something different from most others in your core...what connects us cannot be expressed into words...Soul to Soul...
So Stand...and know that you are not alone. I also have a video I will be uploading to YouTube about this very matter. Standing spiritually strong...understanding that is okay to question authority or ideas/ philosophies that contradict the ACTUAL way of Life.
Nature is perfect. The Creator makes no mistakes.
You are exactly where you need to be at this moment, and you are reading this because the Divine Order brought you here. Embrace the energy, embrace the Knowledge, embrace your individual DNA as it embraces you.
As always, Love and Light. Peace be with the World. Naree' Renelle.
Mmm Hmmmm *Erykah Badu Voice*
"One Night Stand" (A Novel) by: Naree' Renelle
This here is my novel; a work in progress/ process. I envision it being published by the Spring of 2011 with it being available on bookshelves and online the Summer of 2011. Believe in my vision....here is the excerpt or the description you will find in the back of the book:
One Night Stand: My Life’s Movie
“But was it just for one night?”
A test of fate accompanies Naree Norway’s path to adulthood in this twisted tale of lovers and friends.
Fresh out of Undergrad, working towards her goals, she comes to tackle one of life’s most inevitable obstacles: Love.
Late nights, she imagines her life with the young man she deeply craves for. Their relationship was always special, but now her body told secrets that only she and he shared.
As a normal part of her clique, she highly anticipates every social opportunity she has with him. Each time, further convincing herself that because of their close association, they are destined to be.
But where did the truth go? She begins to wonder after joining a popular social network. The deeper she digs into the world of digital communication, the more the drama unfolds.
Naree’ and several of her close associates, connected via “Tetwork,” are faced with both old and new skeletons. Emotional outbursts resulting from secrets of betrayal spiral in this gripping tale of negative social interactions and its effect on relationships.
“One Night Stand” is the movie that took place right before one young woman’s eyes as she battled for the truth, her individuality and the integrity of her friends, and lover, that she shared both human and technological love with.
And it all started with just one night……
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Sassy Happiness
It's been a while. And on alot of days, I told myself, "I need to write on my blog. I need to update it."
Finally, here I am.
I forgot the freedom and love that comes along with talking to the World, even if only one person is listening on here (laughs).
Anyway, I used to feel guilty about thinking freely and enjoying my Happiness. Like there was a moral fiber that I had ripped up from my consciousness when I felt in such a way. But now I have learned that there is so much more to that feeling we call Happiness. That I can make what I want of this feeling, and that it has contagious energy.
I call this phase of my Life I have entered my "Sassy Happiness" because it was my attitude that brought me here. My flared temper, coupled with my drastic need for change is what got me to this point of sanity. It is here that I realize that I too, go through the phases of the moon, the tides, and the cycles of Life. Change is the only thing that is constant...I can move like the free-flowing ocean or shine like the glowing moon. These elements of nature are feminine in element anyway.
My Life seemed so complicated, so distant from my dreams, so inebriated on broken promises and lies...but I still found my wings. I may have head to search a little harder for them, but they never forsaked me. My wings to Happiness were always intact, and can never fall off. For no matter where I am, how I am acting, how I am feeling, or reacting, I have found my *Sassy Happiness*
And that feels damn good.
Love and Light Always, BlackSoulRose
Finally, here I am.
I forgot the freedom and love that comes along with talking to the World, even if only one person is listening on here (laughs).
Anyway, I used to feel guilty about thinking freely and enjoying my Happiness. Like there was a moral fiber that I had ripped up from my consciousness when I felt in such a way. But now I have learned that there is so much more to that feeling we call Happiness. That I can make what I want of this feeling, and that it has contagious energy.
I call this phase of my Life I have entered my "Sassy Happiness" because it was my attitude that brought me here. My flared temper, coupled with my drastic need for change is what got me to this point of sanity. It is here that I realize that I too, go through the phases of the moon, the tides, and the cycles of Life. Change is the only thing that is constant...I can move like the free-flowing ocean or shine like the glowing moon. These elements of nature are feminine in element anyway.
My Life seemed so complicated, so distant from my dreams, so inebriated on broken promises and lies...but I still found my wings. I may have head to search a little harder for them, but they never forsaked me. My wings to Happiness were always intact, and can never fall off. For no matter where I am, how I am acting, how I am feeling, or reacting, I have found my *Sassy Happiness*
And that feels damn good.
Love and Light Always, BlackSoulRose
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
And I Am... (random ponders)
You know them days when you don't want nobody around you
Quiet sounds and shyt, no interruptions from your thoughts of being better
A day when the wind is whispering to you, urging you to talk to God
When you know you have your inner world to perfect...before your energy you project, to the outside world
Where a bed of black roses lay at your feet. And honeysuckles give you dream waves, and bees buzz you with honey. You feel sweet....
The high that comes from the warmth of another Soul reminisces in your mind, double time
I am a poet, I am an artist.
Express yourself
Can I live in these graces without any interference?
Can I taste maraschino cherries on scoops of orange sherbet and mix ginger in my tea?
Can I soak cucumbers in honey oil to enhance forgiveness and positivity?
I want to climb mountains, I want to sleep in trees
I want the Creation of Love to provide a sensation
I want to clear the clutter from my mind
I exhaled and it feels damn good
I. Am. Afiyana.
Quiet sounds and shyt, no interruptions from your thoughts of being better
A day when the wind is whispering to you, urging you to talk to God
When you know you have your inner world to perfect...before your energy you project, to the outside world
Where a bed of black roses lay at your feet. And honeysuckles give you dream waves, and bees buzz you with honey. You feel sweet....
The high that comes from the warmth of another Soul reminisces in your mind, double time
I am a poet, I am an artist.
Express yourself
Can I live in these graces without any interference?
Can I taste maraschino cherries on scoops of orange sherbet and mix ginger in my tea?
Can I soak cucumbers in honey oil to enhance forgiveness and positivity?
I want to climb mountains, I want to sleep in trees
I want the Creation of Love to provide a sensation
I want to clear the clutter from my mind
I exhaled and it feels damn good
I. Am. Afiyana.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
The Free Me...
I probably went on a whim with all of this. I probably fainted deadly at the thought of your sweet kiss. Let me not reminisce, for I don't know where those lips have been. How can I blame you? Because I arranged you. I put you in birth and staged you. And this is the thanks I get.
Black Woman, be strong and hold on to the Destiny of Royalty. Black Woman, lead not into temptation of pleasures of the flesh, then what's left? You think there is no connection to the sensations we have in our body and our brain? It's one in the same. Help me to be sane...be all of that and maintain.
Regardless of any situation I am put through, regardless of what we strive as women to do, the truth will prevail. Living in hell, on scales, with whales, in deep, blue oceans that know no end...where are my friends? Where are the Holy Ones that walk the earth with me. We all make mistakes but continuity is stupidity.How do you make a vow to make a change over and over and keep doing the same thing. Your energy is bringing my vibrations down, I always end up frustrated when you come around. Is that a friend?
Fiending for what the streets have to offer...why bother? And tell you what I think. I'm too opinionated and that's why they think..I'm a bitter black soul with no one to hold. But little do they know, I could have whomever and whatever I want....but for what?
Why have the sky-divers of empty, unfulfilled leagcy suck my energy away? I could go on those rides you go on any day...bu they still don't deifne me. Sublime me...Suprise me. Yall don't hear me tho.
I could give a fuck about what the world hears. All I can do is stand fearless from the world's fears. All I can do is wipe my own tears. It's a lonely road and some tears are gonna fall. Oh, it's a lonely road and I won't get through it without God. It's a lonely road and what's sad...many of my people don't even know what we had. Glad to be sad, in the depression of red-clad. Armies...my army. Black Panthers...can you say it right?
But goodnight to the hatred, but hello to the sorrow. Maybe we were happier chained down, gave our freedom for the master to borrow. So hollow, so mean, so peaceful and serene. Were we? Was I? I was there mama, I heard your cries.
But let me not go back into the excuses of you and I. I am here now, left with my soul to fly. Soul to guide...I have to let go of the shame. Let go of the energy...the negativity they speak with my name. Let go of the hearsay, let go of the children. Ten years from now they'll all look up..."Damn, this what E&J was feeling."
And I'll leave 'em alone now, let them live and be free. I know of all of your motives, I know what it is to be me. Be me...that's all I can be. If you don't believe, just watch and see. Me...it's free.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Love Hangover (The OverDose)
I think I drank too much of it last night
Fantasies of your face accompanied by moonlight
Love Hangover...
Four leaf clovers, unicorns and ancient swords
I saw a glimpse of the energy that I thought was yours
Way more intense than before
I tried to say sober...
But your kiss has a way of giving me a high
A shot through my body, that gives me wings to fly
A twist on the fate that the Most High has put in place
Never has the thought of anyone made my heart race...
Like this
Who are you? Did you come from this planet?
Are we in a cosmic dream, or does my imagination run rampant?
Do I ask questions to these things that make no real sense
Eons to cool. Passion, power, cool mint...
And ever since, you walked your way into the footprints of my Soul
It was with you, I knew, that I was to grow old
But my head is heavy, I'm still confused with the Blues
Wondering about the outcome, but time with you is new
And through this love I grew...
Did I?
All I see is black now
Jedi
Heartstrings tugged at,
tongue tied, late nights
Surreal space flights
Just can't seem to get right
This may be the first of few...
but I wish to have no more, only this one here with you
Fantasies of your face accompanied by moonlight
Love Hangover...
Four leaf clovers, unicorns and ancient swords
I saw a glimpse of the energy that I thought was yours
Way more intense than before
I tried to say sober...
But your kiss has a way of giving me a high
A shot through my body, that gives me wings to fly
A twist on the fate that the Most High has put in place
Never has the thought of anyone made my heart race...
Like this
Who are you? Did you come from this planet?
Are we in a cosmic dream, or does my imagination run rampant?
Do I ask questions to these things that make no real sense
Eons to cool. Passion, power, cool mint...
And ever since, you walked your way into the footprints of my Soul
It was with you, I knew, that I was to grow old
But my head is heavy, I'm still confused with the Blues
Wondering about the outcome, but time with you is new
And through this love I grew...
Did I?
All I see is black now
Jedi
Heartstrings tugged at,
tongue tied, late nights
Surreal space flights
Just can't seem to get right
This may be the first of few...
but I wish to have no more, only this one here with you
Love Hangover
Monday, June 28, 2010
E.V.O.L.V.I.N.G. (Queen I Am...)
I feel peaceful, though I let peace go
No more Jesus walks and cathedrals
It’s hard to know you’re the one to navigate
Got quite an impact on my fate
Now I got a lot on my plate
But time moves slow, and then heartaches
Even longer to heal, even harder to deal
Even harder to sit and let my heart spill
Even harder to chill
I try to live like the wind
But still I have made my fair of impressions
On a canvas, known to no man’s space
They look and wonder why it seems my mind is in no man’s space
Because no man’s grace…
Can save me
I need no saving of…just a cup of water and Love
And hugs, oh how long it’s been
Since I felt the warmth of another, truly genuine
Would I even know the feeling if I felt it
From all the bullshit that I’ve dealt with
And not another bitter black woman to take the stage
The story of my life, can you write the page?
Or can you sit and gaze…like I sit and daze
Floating in purple haze, but still not feeling okay
I feel the chemicals they seduce me with
Weed supply anything other than organic
They planned it, but now that I know what to do…
But then I think, what do I know? This bullshit they call the truth
Yeah, unfortunately a member of the “troubled” youth
They laugh…say I got phrases old as Mother Goose
But I love the ones that love me back
They say “E&J I love you,” now how real is that?
How real is the fact….that right now they can’t see my graces?
But I’ll give ‘em three to five years, like sentences in prison spaces
And when they catch up, I’ll be onto a new flame
Burn, baby burn, my mind’s ashes are insane
And too tame…me, would be a hell of a task you see
Still I’m evolving….in a world of catastrophe
**Afiyana Jones**
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Acceptance...
But everytime I feel lost, I come out found.
I've searched, for the purpose, maybe into too many things.
But who am I without my dreams?
Today...it feels like a Renaissance. Thursday, Thursday. Wednesday was yesterday and information-filled...but still I was unthrilled.
I found myself wondering, maybe even wanting to be her. But realizing that with alot of muscle, comes alot of pain.
I know for a fact that I am strong, I know for a fact that my mind wanders and I have trenchant mental powers. I want to penetrate the Universe with my abilitiies.
I want to pierce the soul of others....a whole that allows the flow of light from the Most High to shine thru...guide thru.
Little do we know, we move so slow. Vibrations are so low.....I don't know.
I don't know what to do ...promise I don't know.
As found as I feel, I know I am lost. You know you are Lost because you found yourself...but you still know nothing.
The tree of Knowledge is infinite, so the more I grow, the more I have to grow. There's no level I can reach where I will be satisfied....please take me higher.
My desires, my rules...just tools of my imagination. I am not in control of this Destiny I call my own. It is ruled by those who earned the right to wear thrones. Afrikan Goddesses and Queens I see in my dreams. When I close my eyes I see those beautiful women surrounding me...pulling me back to sanity with their energy. Where would I be without my ground? Where would I be without my stability?
There are here, in me, healing me. They are all indwelling, but I must call on them to bring them to the forefront. For fronting, I get nothing. I guess I should speak how I feel.
I wonder if they will criticize me, for being too real.
This is why I chill..have not alot of interest in the social of situations. Have not alot of interest in those in which I may have surrounded myself with in the past, but not lately.
A few have stayed along the bassline...been there for too much of a time to let them go. They have watched me grow...and so I......
Thank my sister-friend Kyana. I love her because she accepts me for who I am. I can be vulnerable around her, I can tell her my secrets, she will never judge me. No matter how long I try to stay away from her, God will put her back on my path. She tells me the Truth about myself, I tell her the Truth. That is true Love-Friendship.
So with all of this said, I conclude by saying a breath of pure air may flow through my being. If I could just see how liberating writing (or typing) my thoughts down may be. Like a willow tree....I am everlasting.
I am a Black Rose...an Eternal Rose...w/ thorns to spare. I am not Perfect...and I will never be there.
Acceptance
**Afiyana Jones (E&J)
I've searched, for the purpose, maybe into too many things.
But who am I without my dreams?
Today...it feels like a Renaissance. Thursday, Thursday. Wednesday was yesterday and information-filled...but still I was unthrilled.
I found myself wondering, maybe even wanting to be her. But realizing that with alot of muscle, comes alot of pain.
I know for a fact that I am strong, I know for a fact that my mind wanders and I have trenchant mental powers. I want to penetrate the Universe with my abilitiies.
I want to pierce the soul of others....a whole that allows the flow of light from the Most High to shine thru...guide thru.
Little do we know, we move so slow. Vibrations are so low.....I don't know.
I don't know what to do ...promise I don't know.
As found as I feel, I know I am lost. You know you are Lost because you found yourself...but you still know nothing.
The tree of Knowledge is infinite, so the more I grow, the more I have to grow. There's no level I can reach where I will be satisfied....please take me higher.
My desires, my rules...just tools of my imagination. I am not in control of this Destiny I call my own. It is ruled by those who earned the right to wear thrones. Afrikan Goddesses and Queens I see in my dreams. When I close my eyes I see those beautiful women surrounding me...pulling me back to sanity with their energy. Where would I be without my ground? Where would I be without my stability?
There are here, in me, healing me. They are all indwelling, but I must call on them to bring them to the forefront. For fronting, I get nothing. I guess I should speak how I feel.
I wonder if they will criticize me, for being too real.
This is why I chill..have not alot of interest in the social of situations. Have not alot of interest in those in which I may have surrounded myself with in the past, but not lately.
A few have stayed along the bassline...been there for too much of a time to let them go. They have watched me grow...and so I......
Thank my sister-friend Kyana. I love her because she accepts me for who I am. I can be vulnerable around her, I can tell her my secrets, she will never judge me. No matter how long I try to stay away from her, God will put her back on my path. She tells me the Truth about myself, I tell her the Truth. That is true Love-Friendship.
So with all of this said, I conclude by saying a breath of pure air may flow through my being. If I could just see how liberating writing (or typing) my thoughts down may be. Like a willow tree....I am everlasting.
I am a Black Rose...an Eternal Rose...w/ thorns to spare. I am not Perfect...and I will never be there.
Acceptance
**Afiyana Jones (E&J)
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
...And So My Transformation Begins....When will Yours??
I have been in the Healing Spirit for the last few weeks. I can literally "feel" the weight of negativity and inner struggle leaving my being. Now no battle is ever won and evolving is something that goes on forever but I am making significant strides. Series of events have brought me to senses that I never knew existed within my body. I have solidified being totally in tune with my intuition and going along with what I feel is right. Outside influences, although they are sometimes very close associates, can fuck you up in the long run.
One of my first and most obvious breakthroughs was when I took a look back at my journal entries. I saw the amount of stress, anger and uncertainty I brought into situations that I wanted or needed to go well. I laughed because I wondered how I could expect things to go well for me when I was always being so pessimistic about it. I am the controller of my destiny, and with a little inspiration from the Divine Order...my life is still ALL in my hands.
-So with this energy, it was like closing a door from my past...for good. I have performed energy healings on others but as I lay in my bed, contemplating, the voices of the Most High came over me and I followed the instructions. I healed myself...seriously. Mentally, totally, drastically. I cleansed my mind and my womb from the toxic relationships I had (both romantic and otherwise). I cleared my room and living space of all the negativity and I breathed easy, for once.
You don't know how much baggage you need to clear yourself from until you start clearing it. Things that you THOUGHT you forgot about are still deep in the recesses of our brains and hearts and cause spiritual blockages. We are beings of light, the Divine Energy within us blessed from the Most High. This beautiful, Black skin I wear is nothing but a vessel, and cannot hide the turbulence I hide inside.
I'm not perfect, I am not completely healed....but as stated earlier, I made significant strides toward the promised land of milk & honey....all available here on Earth to me.
So I will end by saying that a transformation is a life-long process.I know that I am wise beyond my years and most people my age don't even want to hear about any spiritual enlightenment....for FEAR it may take away from them the guilty pleasures of life they love the most. Let me assure you, I do what I want, but know...you ALWAYS reap what you sow. A laugh now may be a cry later....
-When the walls of your own entrapment break down, you start to see others around you for what they are. You start to see the way others may be using you (for financial gain or anything else), you see the mistake you made cutting that one person who really gave a damn about you out of yout life. You start to see the intricacies of life....EXACTLY for what they are.
I have cut people off, and I have no plans of returning. I graduated last Sunday and after a walk across that stage, I took all of my sanity back with me.All of my Love, my hope, my graciousness, my passion...all of the things that fuel my fire of life...I took it back. Today marks the day where I only distribute my goods to those who are well deserving. Being spiritually conscience does not mean becoming a slave to the needs of others. There is a way to take care of your needs first without being selfish. Today is just one of those days.Today, and every day that follows, I will trust what Erin wants, what Afiyana needs.I have no time for the greedy hearts of those who pretend to be brothers and sisters.
Heal. Transform Your Life. There is no right or wrong way to do it. Tune into yourself and let the rest fall into place. God gave you your third eye to see.....see beyond the fallacy of reality.
I Love....but the most Love comes from those who return the Love back.
R.I.P. to all of the fallen ancestors who live in the sky, the mountains, the plains of the world. The trees, the dust, the air...everywhere. My transformation begins NOW....when will yours?
One of my first and most obvious breakthroughs was when I took a look back at my journal entries. I saw the amount of stress, anger and uncertainty I brought into situations that I wanted or needed to go well. I laughed because I wondered how I could expect things to go well for me when I was always being so pessimistic about it. I am the controller of my destiny, and with a little inspiration from the Divine Order...my life is still ALL in my hands.
-So with this energy, it was like closing a door from my past...for good. I have performed energy healings on others but as I lay in my bed, contemplating, the voices of the Most High came over me and I followed the instructions. I healed myself...seriously. Mentally, totally, drastically. I cleansed my mind and my womb from the toxic relationships I had (both romantic and otherwise). I cleared my room and living space of all the negativity and I breathed easy, for once.
You don't know how much baggage you need to clear yourself from until you start clearing it. Things that you THOUGHT you forgot about are still deep in the recesses of our brains and hearts and cause spiritual blockages. We are beings of light, the Divine Energy within us blessed from the Most High. This beautiful, Black skin I wear is nothing but a vessel, and cannot hide the turbulence I hide inside.
I'm not perfect, I am not completely healed....but as stated earlier, I made significant strides toward the promised land of milk & honey....all available here on Earth to me.
So I will end by saying that a transformation is a life-long process.I know that I am wise beyond my years and most people my age don't even want to hear about any spiritual enlightenment....for FEAR it may take away from them the guilty pleasures of life they love the most. Let me assure you, I do what I want, but know...you ALWAYS reap what you sow. A laugh now may be a cry later....
-When the walls of your own entrapment break down, you start to see others around you for what they are. You start to see the way others may be using you (for financial gain or anything else), you see the mistake you made cutting that one person who really gave a damn about you out of yout life. You start to see the intricacies of life....EXACTLY for what they are.
I have cut people off, and I have no plans of returning. I graduated last Sunday and after a walk across that stage, I took all of my sanity back with me.All of my Love, my hope, my graciousness, my passion...all of the things that fuel my fire of life...I took it back. Today marks the day where I only distribute my goods to those who are well deserving. Being spiritually conscience does not mean becoming a slave to the needs of others. There is a way to take care of your needs first without being selfish. Today is just one of those days.Today, and every day that follows, I will trust what Erin wants, what Afiyana needs.I have no time for the greedy hearts of those who pretend to be brothers and sisters.
Heal. Transform Your Life. There is no right or wrong way to do it. Tune into yourself and let the rest fall into place. God gave you your third eye to see.....see beyond the fallacy of reality.
I Love....but the most Love comes from those who return the Love back.
R.I.P. to all of the fallen ancestors who live in the sky, the mountains, the plains of the world. The trees, the dust, the air...everywhere. My transformation begins NOW....when will yours?
Monday, May 3, 2010
Creator's Love (Placed in my Heart for You Boy)
I think that I've been lied too. Or either I was never told...such a shame I had to find out myself. But who else could I depend on to provide such valuable energy and informative light?
Heaven....in a black man's eyes. Heaven...in between a black woman's thighs. Sweet tenderness, hard to tame, like the moment of sunrise.
I can almost smell the euphoria of lovers post-morning session. I need not to imagine or dream, I can feel every time.Breath fills my body, sexual energy fills my space and I become overwhelmed with the feeling of weakness, strength, endurance and pain. All of the buckets of blood and water, perspiration and sedation that goes into the liasons of love makers. Those, like I, that may transport the energy to and fro. Only aligned withthe Most High you know...
I often thought what I was doing was "making love"...as I've grown, I know now that I was "fuckin'"....plain and simple. No love was exchanged in the bed of the lustful enemy who just wanted to use my body as a warm hole of pleasure. No love comes from the high-induced state he put me in just to bring me to arousal, demonstrating his lack of intelligience reagrding the feminine aspects. No love was there in the backseat of the van, pounding and pouncing. No Love....
I may swim in a million men and a million more dollars...but I was looking for Love in all the wrong places. Different credentials, different swags and different faces....but still couldn't find "it." Looking for love in the wrong places. In between the spaces, along the side of graces...but still not there...Love won't be found there...in all the wrong places.
I wish I could rewind...but then no I don't. Because now my heart is open wide...and Hope floats. Without the ability to hate and be dragged so low, how could I have such a great capacity to Love? My heart shines brightly..."you see me now...I'm beamin.'"
No more screaming, tag-teaming...most of yall is still dreamin'. But my heart, my mind....it took time...but I'm beamin'.
And now HE is all that I see. Oh, how I have waited so desperately. But I had to see...for me...that was not the way to be. Love, like life, should be carefree. Care not of the small things he may do or say...for his feelings from the inside may feel a different way. No more speculation, no more worry. This here, is a true love story.
HE is all that I see...our love making was seriously, Sacred Energy. I go back and channel in my mind, and all I see is pure energy defined. No harsh rules, no ulterior motives. I love you and you love me....
We know...we know not, what to do with the energy in which we have been shot.
HE....do you know who you are? I've written plenty of things about your shining in my stars. I am the moon under a bright light...you are my sunshine when I lose sight. Just like God told me before...to wait and let the energy sweep you away...I may wait for you for any numbers of any days *smile*
I pass on passion to you, and it adds to the steam already forming in your core. In your body....while your eyes screaming that you want more. And sometimes I feel I may put too much into the energy I know we are a part of....this energy...only for two souls that form Love.
Spoken Word lyricist...knew you could get with this. Watching me as I switch...I won't replace this.
I am in Love...with Love. I am in Love...with your Love. So much to explore...so much more for you to show me. I hope that our energy revolves and you behold me...Afiyana. Through the Amazon...through the rainforests of life...through the rivers of eternity....this side..that side. No matter where our souls travel, I shall meet and see you again. I shall be with you again. We shall live again. We shall combine to make further life and when the breath leaves these vessels we occupy now, we shall live through our further life on Earth. I am not hurt, I am healed...from Love. Love healed me, and will never hurt me. Love does not hurt. Pain does. Love does not kill...hate does. Love is in the eye of the beholder...no Love is anything that is everything. Without Love...there is....
Love. Afiyana. Peace. Love. Peace. Afiyana. Boy I love you, and I lead not my heart down an alley to lead me astray. I Love...and I will save this love here for you anyday.
Love secured safely in my heart....the Creator out it there, for you, from the Start.
Heaven....in a black man's eyes. Heaven...in between a black woman's thighs. Sweet tenderness, hard to tame, like the moment of sunrise.
I can almost smell the euphoria of lovers post-morning session. I need not to imagine or dream, I can feel every time.Breath fills my body, sexual energy fills my space and I become overwhelmed with the feeling of weakness, strength, endurance and pain. All of the buckets of blood and water, perspiration and sedation that goes into the liasons of love makers. Those, like I, that may transport the energy to and fro. Only aligned withthe Most High you know...
I often thought what I was doing was "making love"...as I've grown, I know now that I was "fuckin'"....plain and simple. No love was exchanged in the bed of the lustful enemy who just wanted to use my body as a warm hole of pleasure. No love comes from the high-induced state he put me in just to bring me to arousal, demonstrating his lack of intelligience reagrding the feminine aspects. No love was there in the backseat of the van, pounding and pouncing. No Love....
I may swim in a million men and a million more dollars...but I was looking for Love in all the wrong places. Different credentials, different swags and different faces....but still couldn't find "it." Looking for love in the wrong places. In between the spaces, along the side of graces...but still not there...Love won't be found there...in all the wrong places.
I wish I could rewind...but then no I don't. Because now my heart is open wide...and Hope floats. Without the ability to hate and be dragged so low, how could I have such a great capacity to Love? My heart shines brightly..."you see me now...I'm beamin.'"
No more screaming, tag-teaming...most of yall is still dreamin'. But my heart, my mind....it took time...but I'm beamin'.
And now HE is all that I see. Oh, how I have waited so desperately. But I had to see...for me...that was not the way to be. Love, like life, should be carefree. Care not of the small things he may do or say...for his feelings from the inside may feel a different way. No more speculation, no more worry. This here, is a true love story.
HE is all that I see...our love making was seriously, Sacred Energy. I go back and channel in my mind, and all I see is pure energy defined. No harsh rules, no ulterior motives. I love you and you love me....
We know...we know not, what to do with the energy in which we have been shot.
HE....do you know who you are? I've written plenty of things about your shining in my stars. I am the moon under a bright light...you are my sunshine when I lose sight. Just like God told me before...to wait and let the energy sweep you away...I may wait for you for any numbers of any days *smile*
I pass on passion to you, and it adds to the steam already forming in your core. In your body....while your eyes screaming that you want more. And sometimes I feel I may put too much into the energy I know we are a part of....this energy...only for two souls that form Love.
Spoken Word lyricist...knew you could get with this. Watching me as I switch...I won't replace this.
I am in Love...with Love. I am in Love...with your Love. So much to explore...so much more for you to show me. I hope that our energy revolves and you behold me...Afiyana. Through the Amazon...through the rainforests of life...through the rivers of eternity....this side..that side. No matter where our souls travel, I shall meet and see you again. I shall be with you again. We shall live again. We shall combine to make further life and when the breath leaves these vessels we occupy now, we shall live through our further life on Earth. I am not hurt, I am healed...from Love. Love healed me, and will never hurt me. Love does not hurt. Pain does. Love does not kill...hate does. Love is in the eye of the beholder...no Love is anything that is everything. Without Love...there is....
Love. Afiyana. Peace. Love. Peace. Afiyana. Boy I love you, and I lead not my heart down an alley to lead me astray. I Love...and I will save this love here for you anyday.
Love secured safely in my heart....the Creator out it there, for you, from the Start.
Honey...Molasses
I came across another one today. And I blazed her my way...indirectly.
As I sit here and think about her smile, the way she made me smile. All of her hopes and aspirations reflected in the moonlight last night. I thought I had lost all hope in the comitose, but here she flys. She flew right into my space, our stars lined up to be blissful. Only the Most High can arrange such a meeting...a meeting of Souls.
God is mysterious...a mysterious beauty that surrounds us all. If I align myself with Sacred beings, never can I fall. Never can I fail. I think that the meaning of life is defined in small moments like these. All of the bullsh*t the world has to offer....slows, and come second to a awe-inspired moment from the Most High. All moments belong to that energy but our recognition of them gives us more power in our our Sacred space. My space must be sacred and defined, for I defined the energy around me yesterday. I saw the energy waves that surrounded my being, released from my core and saw how my soul calls out to people. Certain levels of vibrations....lead to elevation.
So today started blessed, and will continue to be. Life is better than the lives of millionaires...when lived stress-free. I believe...I really do, and know now that God-energy is so omnipresent, simple, yet complex that it strategically positions us in the place of fate...at the right time...for the right things.
I started this post last week...and will finish it later..which translates into now. I know that my thoughts are beyond a galaxy that reaches most, but we are all Gods. I can't even begin to demoralize my being by sitting here and listing the trillions of thngs that have happened to us as a society, drawing us more and more to worldly ways.
I saw her and I dreamed of a place where I could be saved in my grace...the grace of Love. Where women like her would meet me to have meetings of the Soul...to stir up positive vibrations in our households, in our relationships, in our families, in our lives. In our homes, in our communities, in our backyards, at our jobs. If there was a price put on the ease of mind and positivity...I would be so broke. So broke....
These are the only things in life I long for...
So my sweet Angel, I know you will be there. When I first saw you, I said to myself "That's an angel..." Are you? Are you sent to me to build and vibe on a new level...unlike any others? One that will allow us to be free in ourselves, grow wise in our years and fear not the whispers or acceptance of "modern-day" people. Quite a struggle, quite alot to ask from a Soul...but mine is enriched, and I wish to share the Love of the Most High with you.
"Spread Goodness" is what the elders say. Spread Love from the Most High and shower me with flower essences of sweet smells, sweet hearts and sweet Black Women. My dolls, the beauty beyond beauty. The Spirit of a Goddess is covered with the Mahogany, Black, Sweet, Curvaceous honey-dripping hips and skin that are in direct alignment with the Divine Creator. I am Proud, Bold and Lovely. I am Proud to be an Afrikan Woman. I am proud to be an Afrikan. No longer will I be isolated with my potential, afraid if others will accept me or succumb to my natural, royal beauty. They have no choice.
While the others worry about the lustful, roaming eyes of men, she and I will drive into wilderness darknesses and play with strawberry fields and flowers.
While the others pay to play, we will be in the freedom of free. Spending nothing but our energy tirelessly. Living on nothing known to humanity. A new entire world only we can see. The concept of reality is fading...it's time for the new galaxies to open up.
While the others plan get-aways with no metaphysical content...we will live in the Sun. We will march like non-thieves into the hearts of many, and warm the Souls of the Lost. We will stray away from negative energy....for it is at a lost. I love you my Love, I love You, I love YOU!
Women of the world, women of the Nile...all are my child. Women of the world, women of the Nile...I Am your child.
We are one...We are of the same...can we find that magnetic wave...that leaves none of us in thegrave. Life is Eternal...Life is everlasting. Life is the answer....you are the question.
We are the quest for sweetback Knowledge...we are the quest for subliminal energy.We...are WOMAN. Afrikan Goddess, Warrior Princess...from the hills of Milano. To the droves of seas...to the smell of sweet peaches in Savannah. I am...Afiyana. You are... My Rose. "Honey Molasses"
As I sit here and think about her smile, the way she made me smile. All of her hopes and aspirations reflected in the moonlight last night. I thought I had lost all hope in the comitose, but here she flys. She flew right into my space, our stars lined up to be blissful. Only the Most High can arrange such a meeting...a meeting of Souls.
God is mysterious...a mysterious beauty that surrounds us all. If I align myself with Sacred beings, never can I fall. Never can I fail. I think that the meaning of life is defined in small moments like these. All of the bullsh*t the world has to offer....slows, and come second to a awe-inspired moment from the Most High. All moments belong to that energy but our recognition of them gives us more power in our our Sacred space. My space must be sacred and defined, for I defined the energy around me yesterday. I saw the energy waves that surrounded my being, released from my core and saw how my soul calls out to people. Certain levels of vibrations....lead to elevation.
So today started blessed, and will continue to be. Life is better than the lives of millionaires...when lived stress-free. I believe...I really do, and know now that God-energy is so omnipresent, simple, yet complex that it strategically positions us in the place of fate...at the right time...for the right things.
I started this post last week...and will finish it later..which translates into now. I know that my thoughts are beyond a galaxy that reaches most, but we are all Gods. I can't even begin to demoralize my being by sitting here and listing the trillions of thngs that have happened to us as a society, drawing us more and more to worldly ways.
I saw her and I dreamed of a place where I could be saved in my grace...the grace of Love. Where women like her would meet me to have meetings of the Soul...to stir up positive vibrations in our households, in our relationships, in our families, in our lives. In our homes, in our communities, in our backyards, at our jobs. If there was a price put on the ease of mind and positivity...I would be so broke. So broke....
These are the only things in life I long for...
So my sweet Angel, I know you will be there. When I first saw you, I said to myself "That's an angel..." Are you? Are you sent to me to build and vibe on a new level...unlike any others? One that will allow us to be free in ourselves, grow wise in our years and fear not the whispers or acceptance of "modern-day" people. Quite a struggle, quite alot to ask from a Soul...but mine is enriched, and I wish to share the Love of the Most High with you.
"Spread Goodness" is what the elders say. Spread Love from the Most High and shower me with flower essences of sweet smells, sweet hearts and sweet Black Women. My dolls, the beauty beyond beauty. The Spirit of a Goddess is covered with the Mahogany, Black, Sweet, Curvaceous honey-dripping hips and skin that are in direct alignment with the Divine Creator. I am Proud, Bold and Lovely. I am Proud to be an Afrikan Woman. I am proud to be an Afrikan. No longer will I be isolated with my potential, afraid if others will accept me or succumb to my natural, royal beauty. They have no choice.
While the others worry about the lustful, roaming eyes of men, she and I will drive into wilderness darknesses and play with strawberry fields and flowers.
While the others pay to play, we will be in the freedom of free. Spending nothing but our energy tirelessly. Living on nothing known to humanity. A new entire world only we can see. The concept of reality is fading...it's time for the new galaxies to open up.
While the others plan get-aways with no metaphysical content...we will live in the Sun. We will march like non-thieves into the hearts of many, and warm the Souls of the Lost. We will stray away from negative energy....for it is at a lost. I love you my Love, I love You, I love YOU!
Women of the world, women of the Nile...all are my child. Women of the world, women of the Nile...I Am your child.
We are one...We are of the same...can we find that magnetic wave...that leaves none of us in thegrave. Life is Eternal...Life is everlasting. Life is the answer....you are the question.
We are the quest for sweetback Knowledge...we are the quest for subliminal energy.We...are WOMAN. Afrikan Goddess, Warrior Princess...from the hills of Milano. To the droves of seas...to the smell of sweet peaches in Savannah. I am...Afiyana. You are... My Rose. "Honey Molasses"
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
The Same Ray of Sunshine...Floodgates of Love
How Inspired the Most High has me today. I have had a tendency in the past to post with my thoughts all over the place so I now try to remember to focus in on a subject. I am still not sure exactly what this post will be about so I will just write, or type rather, and tell you about the things that come to my mind.
Firstly, is Inspiration (once again).
I recently took a Career Personality Assessment test and saw that most of my strenghts lie in inspiring others to do good work. Well, I actually feel honored by that because that is what I love to do most. I love to help people realize their full potential often when they have failed to realize it themselves.
Inspiration is such a valuable form of energy because it is the gift that keeps on giving. For instance, I feel inspired by a variety of things this morning. From the Erykah Badu c.d. I played on the way to work, to the conversations I had with certain people last night, all of these small inspirations in my life were inspired by the Most High. Therefore, their light shines on me and I am in return, shining it onto you. Do you see how this exchange goes? What makes it really beautiful though is that we are all experiencing the same ray of light, the same ray of sunshine from Ra-our Sun God.
(Pause and Refelct on that Beauty).
How often we take for granted the goodness and gracious of a lovely, sunny day. Imagine life if you could not look to the sky...
Just that thought is absent of life...absent of light. Without the sky there would be nothing to live for, nothing to look forward to.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, that we all come from the same light, the Same Ray of Sunshine. And through that Sunshine in our hearts, we Inspire ourselves and others around us. Inspiration is such a nice word to me right now, such an amazing theme. I see it as a transitionary phrase as well for me at this point. I am transitionaing with my power because I do not only use my Inspiration for myself, but to Inspire others. That's what begins to happen when you are overflowed and overjoyed with Love, Peace and Inspiration. You share it with others, you open up the sunshine in their hearts.
-The same way that people share their emotions and their problems when they are overflowed with negativity, wickedness, depression and self-doubt. Choose to be the one who provides people with solutions, not problems. Happiness, not scolding. Progression, not depression.
"Love. And Be Loved." -This is also becoming a favorite quote/ theme of mine.
In Ms. Erykah Badu's latest album New Amerykah Part 2: Return of the Ankh, she has a song called "Love" where she breaks down some very true things about emotions. The song begins by explaining that all of our emotions have a vibratory frequency to them. That the only emotions that human beings experience in this plane are: Love and Fear. Any emotion that we have is either directly or indirectly related to these two emotions. She is so on point with that. To give you an example: If you go into your family reunion with the expectation that all of your family is going to embarass you with crude comments, loud talking, belching and everything possible to work your nerves, BELIEVE that this is exactly the type of experience you will encounter. Your mind allowed you to set the parameters of the situation with your ability to function around those that you are obviously emotionally connected to, your family. Your ability to love was overshadowed by your fear, or ability to hate and be the real person that you are.
If you take the same scenario and you go into it without the fear of being seen or perceived a "certain way," then this will be the ultimate bonding experience for you and your family. By not enclosing yourself with that fear of embarassment, rejection, agitated nerves etc., you have opened up the floodgates of love, allowing yourself to be totally loving and accepting of your family, as they will be towards you.
In Life, the very same rules apply. We all tend to wear masks of pride, anger, complaints and self-righteousness. These emotions are all normal but are being processed the wrong way.Why not be prideful about the fact that you can take control of your life and sto being a mental slave to the society around you. Or how about becoming angry about the way one of your brothers or sisters is representing themselves out in the street so you decide to inspire them to do better with themselves. There is a such thing of becoming so angry about something that you gently handle it. Or how about complaining about nothing that you have not exhausted every possibility of fixing yourself. This alone would cut down on alot of the confusion we experience each day in our lives. And self-righteousness...well that just needs to be displayed in a positive manner. There is a very thin line between confidence and cockiness. Know that although you may be more spiritually attuned, better dressed, a better reader or more accustomed to the "delicacies of life" then the next man, we all are still EQUAL. The Creator created all of us and therefore as humans we have the same capacity to do the same things mentally, physically and spiritually (actually, there may be some tweeks to that information here and there but that is a topic for another blog post :). If one man or woman can do it, then any man or woman can.
Are you functioning on a high vibratory frequency of Love? Or on the low, slow vibrational frequency of Fear?
Fear and Love are as different as night and day, but night and day are both, inevitable. Therefore it is natural to fear, natural to feel a certain way about things you don't understand. But it is also within nature that you find that shining light, that Golden Ray of Sunshine that is promised each morning when the sun rises. And when the sun sets, our emotions don't set with it, we all are still...the same frequency.
So ride in Love, open your soul to the overflowing blessings of the Most High that naturally weave their way into your life when the highest freuqency of all, Love, takes over your being.
Fear not. "For there is nothing to Fear but Fear itself." - Roosevelt
Love & Fear. So far apart but so near. I am, We are...the same Golden Ray of Sunshine. Allow all of our hearts to shine collectively, let the floodgates of Love free...and at Peace our souls shall be.
Peace, Love and Energy always. Tua Neteru (My Inspiration through you)...E&J**
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